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8月5日 woahhey guys!! oh my golly! i did not even kno that my space was still here, i thought it deleted itself when i stopped visiting it. well thanks for reading my blogs and stuff. 12月19日 Witness ok here s a song
To the tune of "CHAINS"
DO yo' witness show.
DID u leave it at the do' (door)
Do it shine like a light,
Does it barely even glow,
DO yo' throw it o'er yo' shoulder,
R U hot or are u cold?
Do YO' WITNESS SHOW!!
I THINK THAT IS SOOOO COOL!
Jesus loves u!
In His Grip,
Belle 11月18日 one time one day Hullo,
sorry i havent been here in forever, but ya kno new school, homework, all the jazz.
So one time i was in 7th hour and im like all hyper, kinda like now! but i drop my calculator, on the right side, and you kno the desks with the bar that comes around on the right side? well because the bar was in my way i couldnt quite reach it, so i put all my wieght on that side and i all most got it, when the desk tips over and i half land in Val's lap (who sat next to me) and she's trying to lift me up, but i slide down to the floor. and now the bars jabbing deep into my side and everyone is laughing at me. And the teacher's like "Will someone please be a gentleman and help Belle off the floor" and im like "No! i got down here all by myself and i get get up all by myself." Then everyone's still laughing and i feel REAL embarressed.
 In HIs Grip,
Belle 8月27日 i hate being the new kid.hey guys!
i ahvent posted in like 3 months, sorry about that. about a week ago i started at a new school, it was so frightening for me. i used to go to a super small school. there were like 100 ppl in the entire school. now theres over 200 ppl in my freshman class. the first day was so scary for me. there were so many ppl, and i didnt have a locker yet. i got lost at least 2 times. i felt really awkward and uncomfortable, i only knew like 5 ppl in the whole school. and at luch i felt really lonely, cuz i brought my lunch and the ppl who were going to sit w/ me had to wait in line. i just really wanted for people to kno me. but since i barely knew anyone i was really quiet, and only talked when someone talked to me. but the second day i started to feel a lil' better spoke to some people. after school i talked to a friend of mine and i was like", NOBODY TALKS TO ME, blah, blah, whine, whine.!"
 my friend was all like," the phone works both ways, Belle, if u want ppl to talk to u, u gotta talk to them." i guess i dont talk to ppl i dont kno, cuz either i m afraid i might say something stupid, or i allready did say something stupid. but i geuss high school just takes somegetting used to.
In His Grip,
Belle 6月18日 depressedhey
my sister went to a camp, as a counselor, for disabled people. she was supposed to only be gone for three weeks. she only called once, talked to me only once.she decidied to stay fro another week. i took it pretty hard. at first i was ok, cus my other sisters Happiness and Purple (nicknames) were there. But then Happiness went out of stae to get a job and Purple is studying to be a nurse. then things for me got kind of depressing. i would just sit around and whatch TV all day. and ive noticed a very dramatic change in my appitiete. Normally in summer i just like, well basically eat buttloads of food. but lately ill just skipp breakfast , have like a lean pocket for lunch and nibble at whatever mom made for dinner. and i just cant concentrate to get myself to clean. but at night when i rip my fried brain away from the tv, i would actually talk to God. its hard to explain, i d like connect my talking/thinking to God. See i used to be that u have to be praying to talk to God. but u sort of dont, its like taking whatever ur thinking a sned it up to God because He'll listen to you, every thing in your haert is connected to Him, He wants u telll HIm, everything in ur head, that just suddenly pops up. It felt really, really good.
i was feeling depressed so i like forced my self to make some soup and while waiting for it to boil, i picked up a pen and started writting. Some of it i wrote in here, some about going to a new high school, and a whole bunch of different things. then i went and ate my soup and forgot about it on the counter. the next morning my mom said " How are u feeling" and i was like "HUH?" then she said "u seemed depressed form ur little note." then i guess i felt embarressed, because my mom knew how i was feeling, i was vulnerable. and now , typing this, i realize God had a hand in that because really feel kind of better that my mom noticed that something was different, and she is also makeing sure i at least get some food in me. now guys dont get all weird on me, this only happend in like 3 weeks. sometimes i still get lonely, but that makes me all the more excieted to talk to God and to go to Youth group.
In His Grip,
Belle` 6月8日 something that i thunk ofhey
i was thinking and u know how in the morning ur teeth are all gross and ur breth smells? But u just brushed tham last night? Its like every time we pray for forgivness. God, like the toothbrush, cleans away every single sin , junk stuck in our teeth, and makes it miinty fresh. But to keep ur teeth and spirit healthy u also need to floss (read ur Bible) and use mouth wash(go to church) regularly. i've been using mouthwash and brushing,but just barely flossing (metaphorically) and i now relize i need to really get in there and take care of the sin before it gets to deep and creates a cavity or a deep hole in my walk with God. So the next time u brush,floss, or gargle remember this odd thing that i wrote on my blog. Thanks Guys!
In His Grip,
Belle 2月27日 Sorry i ahvent done anything in a gajillion years!Hullo kids!
yeah, sorry for not being here for ever. i was just doing stuff. ya know what, i found a pretty kewl passage in my Bible! 1st Thessalonians 5. i esspecially like verses, i think 21-26, but i might be off cuz' i dont have a Bible right here. its about loving, and praying and stuff. its pretty awesome, dont believe me!!??!! Read it!
 ~LOL!~In His Grip,
Belle 12月17日 If we took "Christ" out of "Christmas" all we'd have is "mas"!hey,
Wazzup! ok, i think its totally dum, that people are trying to take Christ out of Christmas! i mean thier trying not to offend people, but it never did b-4, so why does it matter now. also since they are trying to take Christ out of Christmas, their like offending everyone of the Christian faith. i mean like allmost everyone (exept ppl who celebrate Hunnika, and Quansa {did not spell either of those rite}) celebrates Christmas. i mean even people who claim that they dont have any religous beliefs. and whats up w/ people like freaking out when a worker in a store or a resturant, says "Merry Christmas" instead of "Happy Holidays" i mrean the ppl are just trying to be nice and these ppl freak out like thier being forced to celebrate Christmas, becuse the person said that to them, and they are gonna die if they do celebrate CHristmas. people act like Christmas is the Black Plague, instead of a time to share cheer and good will. well i say CHRISTMAS IS AWESOME AND GOD BLESS IT!~~!!
In HIs Grip,
Belle
p.s. yeah pretty sure i got that from a story about some guy who says "Hum-bug" allot, but who can be sure
P.p.s.s. what is a Hum bug anyway? 12月8日 My B-dayHullo! yeah i havent dont anuything for like a month but it was my b-day on Saturday, Dec. 3. thats y my profile thing says 14 now instaed of 13, becuse i am! lol well anyway its snoing right now! i love sno, its so awesome. so im going to go play in it! In His Grip, Belle 11月11日 The Holy Spirit Gives me Goosebumbs!hey
i made up another poem, maybe u'll like it!
The Holy Spirit Gives Me Goosebumps
the first time i felt these bumbs
we were singing a song,
they didnt last very long,
i thought how strange it is that i got these lumps
i realized it was the Holy Spirit talking,
and i felt really glad,
so i decided to ask my dad,
He told me i had started my walking
with Jesus along the narrow path,
snd thst i shouldn't stray afar,
I'd prolly get hit by a "sin car''
all it really is,is simple math
you + Jesus = eternal life in heaven
i thought that i should leave His side never
and live with Him forever,
so i got saved when i was about seven!
so when i feel these lumps
i just think and say
" I can feel Him talking today!"
becuse the Holy Spirit gives me goosebumps!
yeah, so tell me if u liked it or if it didnt make any sense at all!
In His Grip,
Belle 11月10日 My Testimonyhey (im taking someone's advice and im going to tell u my testimony)
this may not be the most interesting and compelling testimony u ever heard, but its mine. When i was little i used to think that the service was nap time. id lay on my daddy and fall asleep till the end of the service and go home. well one day our pastor (he was an older gentleman, prolly part of y i found the servic boring) he kept on talking about Jesus, i heard about Him bfore and i couldnt fall asleep so i listened to what he said. he talked about how Jesus died for our sins and stuff, when i was little this didnt make too much of an imact on me, but i understood that this was a big deal. i think i was 6 or 7. after the service my daddy and i went out to the car (my sisters allways lingered after to talk to thier friends) and i asked him about this man, Jesus. he explianed to me that He died for my sins! i thin k then is when it hit me He DIED, FOR ME!my dad asked if i wanted to accept Him in my heart, i said yes and i started to get exieted, my daddy prayed with me the prayer, and he took the Bible he was holding and wrote John 3:16 in it so i could remember that day. and ive had Jesus in my life ever since! In His Grip, Belle p.s. post ur testimony if u want to!
11月3日 I GOT A KITTEN!hey i got a kitten its a girl, calico & white. some one found her in the church parking lot, and they were only allowed to have male cats and my mom siad i could only have a girl! and i named to Tellula! its an interesting name for a cat. In His Grip, Belle 10月30日 Isn't it weird?hey
i've got a few questions for u!
Isn't it weird when ur friends think that ur good at something that u dont think ur good at?
i think so!
 isnt it strange how ppl who look different are persectuted by every one who looks the same? i think so!
 isnt it odd that ppl who go to church and pray b-4 they eat in a resturant leave a smaller tip than those who dont?
i think so!
 isnt it dissapionting that we make lables for every one we meet?
i think so!
 isnt it great that most of our labels dont fit the person after we get to kno them?
I think so!
 isnt it sad that ppl every where are being hurt and unloved?
i think so!
 isnt it wonderful that God loves u nd every one else in the world all the same? more then the stars up above, or the water in the ocean?
i think thats BOMB-DIGGETY!
 yup so think about it? and holla and tell me what u think~!
In His Grip,
Belle
 10月23日 My toothhey,
ok, last summer on the day before the the first day of 7th grade. i had a bad bike accident. i skinned up both elbows really bad, my knees and i knocked out one of my front perminent teeth. so i had to go to school with out a front tooth, i had to leave in the middle of the day to go to a dentist to put in a fake one. then on the 2nd day of school i was eating a chip and my fake tooth fell out! so after school i had to go to the dentist again, but they put in a better one. So on Friday i was eating a hard taco, and something felt different! i was like "what wrong with my mouth?" then i felt my tooth was gone and i found it on my plate. and guess what? we were about to go to my sister's HIGH school play( she was not in it but it was her school's play) so i had to go to the play with out a tooth. i was trying really hard not to smile or talk, witch is VERY, VERYdifficult for me (all those ppl who kno me well onderstand) yeah and guess who was sitting 2 rows infront of us? Travis Bell! one of the ppl who make me smile(but about every one i kno makes me smile anyway)and i guess i was talking to my mom or something but he noticed and i didnt see him untill after he probably allready had seen it. and he and a few other ppl came and talked to me and my sis at intermission and i just sat there smiling one of those NON_TOOTHY smiles and trying not to talk. i was hopeing that no one had seen my non-toothness, but they porlly did and just didnt say anything. after the play Travis called my sis's cell phone and said "What happened to Belle's tooth" instaed of "Hello" then she gave the phone to me and he said " i saw it , but u were trying so hard to hide it" anyway the dantist isnt open on weekends except Saturday mornin' but u would have to wait a long time to get there so i have to wait til' Monday to get it fixed. i think God has kinda really helped me with my out look tward outhers, i mean just becuz i didnt have a tooth nobody stopped being my friend. (but it was anooying the way ppl lokked at it while i was talkin') and i reall think that i need to be less judgemental
 geeky or  hot people are all oved by God in the same way, and they all should be loved in the same way by U!!In His Grip
(not quite done yet)
THE PLAY
the play was BOMB-DIGGETY AWESOME! inspite my non-toothnes, i am really glad i went! WHITNEY TANK IS SOO HOT!
it was a comedy myistery thing. it was dark during the play so i could smile and laugh! i think one of the best parts was when Bobby King died! Yup, he a REAL good actor (wink, wink) anywayit was really KEWL and deserves the title "BOMB-DIGGETY"!
In His Grip,
Belle
(ok im done) 10月15日 Land Between the Lakes! (Kentucky)hey
so im back from Kentuckey and i've got a ton load to tell! plz read all of this cuz it took me a long time to write it all down
ok so i got to ride w/ my 2 best buds Brittani and Alicea cuz we like take separte cars and junk anyway Alicea's mom is like awesomely kewl so we like blasted music! and guess what kinda music we blasted? CHRISTIAN AND OLDIES! we'd like stick our haeds out the window and haed bang and when we stoppped we'd hang out the window and sing the song to people! we rocked out for like 3 hours straight. and like when we stopped to get gas we were like so hyper and all we had eaten was M&M's and Gatorade! like we were doing jumping contests! well when we stopped we went to this planetaium thing and we learned about space and how the universe is 4 billion yrs. old,i dont really think thats true cuz God made the Universe all in the same week along with man , and man is not 4 billion yrs old. and its was like so boring. but at the end (we were in an Omimax therater) they had this light thing-a-ma-jig and it felt like we were moving but we wernt, that was like the only kewl part of that. then we drove some more and rocked out and we went to a center where they like save animals, i cant remember what they're called b-cuz its like late, and learned about K-9 junk. and we looked at an egle, buzzards, cyotes, and red wolves. and last but not least we looked at owls. there was this one and it was SOO CUTE! he was like really little and he had really big eyes! anyway oh and we played like K-9 sharades where like the person gives u some kinda feeling and u have to do it in like K-9. yup me and my best buds were tierd dogs. moving on then we got to the place where we were going the girls got like 2 huge tents and the boys had like 3 smaller tents. in one tent we found like an old something, i think it was lunch meat, but it was beyound recognition! it was like oozing green junk, and the tent smelled like rotten lunch meat that was beyound reconition and that was oozing green junk.!! it was like in a pocket and we had to cut it out and spary the tent down with smelly junk and AXE! after that desturbingness some of the girls went down to the shore of the lake and started playing volleball. and we "accidentally" hit the ball in the water so we "had "to go get it. i got my legs all wet! we were walking back we were like" if we get in trouble, we'll say we had to get the volleyball" so we got back to camp and the adults didnt even do anything! so i canged into shorts then we went to the Kentucky "Ham Festivle" not as cheesy as it sounds! there was this awesome band and me and my buds were like all hyper anyway we immediatly started to dance!and Andrew like did the worm in front of all these kewl black ppl! they were playing all the good oldies, and there were a allot of black ppl there and they were kewl! the black dude who was singing started to sing "My Gril" and like thet whole group i was with started to sing allong! B.D. (black dude) started going around and he said "Who Knows this song" and i was like i do!! then my friends pushed me forward and he asked my name and i said Belle (obviosly) he said" Bell like "ding, ding" and everyone started to laugh, but im used to it so dont be like "hey that was mean" , cuz it was funny. he said" Everyone, do u think she know the song" and everyone was like yeah! he gave me the mic and i startde to sing '' I've got sunshine on a cloudy day, when its cold outside i've got the the month of may" when i got here i started to be unsure of myself cuz i was sinigng really good. then i was like" well-ll i'd guess u'd say "what can make me feel this way?' then Brit and Alicea jumped in "My Girl" then these 2 black ppl we didnt kno jumped in , but it was kewl cuz they knrew the song. then B.D. came in and took the mic and said" i start out with one person and end up with 95!" did i mention as i began sing like right after i sang everyone cheered? then we wnt to the rides but it was poo b-cuz it was a dollar for a ticket and it took at least 3 tickets for a ride! we were like" Holy poo, thats stupid!"so we just went back to the band place and thid lil' black boy was like doing all these crazy kewl moves! so we just stayed there for a while then likke the rest of the ppl came and we left.then at 9:30 we went on a hike which was kinda a bummer cuz ppl wouldnt turn thier flashlight off even though the moon was so bright there were shadows. and we didnt really hike we walked down the road and went down to the lake shore on the opposite side. then i had to sleep in the smelly tent that didnt smell anymore cuz we sprayed AXE everywhere. and we ate chips and it was really cold.
then today (Saturday) we had breakfast and put up camp and went to this village thing wich was a not kewl place. we had to whatch yet another boring thing during which i almost fell asleep then we went out in to this villege thing and one guy that was there kept yellin at a person in my grade, like he was trying to get in this building that was locked, but there was no sign stating it was off-limits and in the boring movie thing it said to look around and touch things so that place was not kewl. but Andrew got me and Brit each a racoon fuzzy thing. so it made it better then we drove again for a long time and went to Kentucky lake and me and my buds had been there b-4 on a different trip so we re-did everything we did last year, like we ate lunch in the same place, had the same person take pictures of us standing in the lake! after that we wnt to a battle re-anactment whitch was really loud. and kinda boring and we kinda got lost, but we knew where we were! then i came home and just laid in my bed for a long time.
ok im done but the funnest part of the trip was the ham festivle cuz allot of ppl got to haer my beautiful voice
In His Grip,
Belle
p.s. i kno it s really long but the trip was fun and i kept leaving my camera in my bag so i have like any pics of the really kewl stuff 10月9日 A poemhey i made up this poem a while ago we were playing a really fun game its called "Honey, if u love me wont u please, please smile." the object is to get a person to smile so that may make this poem make more sense. "Your Smile"
You are my sun moon and stars My heart feels its behind bars, Your great smile, Your wonderful hair, is beyond compare One smile will last a while, but refuse and i am reduced to slap u in the face for it is the place where the smile comes from
yup and that poem made a person smile, and i only got to the part about his hair when he busted out laughing!
In His Grip Belle 10月5日 this is really sad!hey guys someone sent this to me, its really sad, plz read it all the way through, leave a comment and say what u feel after u read it.
My name is Jamie I am but three, My eyes are swollen I cannot see, ********* ********* I must be stupid I must be bad, What else could have made My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better I wish I weren't ugly, Then maybe my mommy Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all I can't do a wrong Or else I'm locked up All the day long.
When I awake I'm all alone The house is dark My folks aren't home. When my mommy does come I'll try and be nice, So maybe I'll get just One whipping tonight. Don't make a sound! I just heard a car My daddy is back From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse My name he calls Ipress myself Against the wall.
I try and hide From his evil eyes Im so afraid now I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping He shouts ugly words, He says its my fault That he suffers at work. He slaps me and hits me And yells at me more, I finally get free And I run for the door.
He's already locked it And I start to bawl, He takes me and throws me Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor With my bones nearly broken, And my day continues With more bad words spoken...
"I'm sorry!", I scream But its now much too late His face has been twisted Into unimaginable hate.
he hurt and the pain Again and again Oh please God, have mercy! Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops And heads for the door, While I lay there motionless Sprawled on the floor.
My name is Jamie And I am but three, Tonight my daddy Murdered me. 9月20日 bitter sweethey
well today i was in the car and this song came on i forget the name but there was 1 thing that caught my attention. the corus of the song went  "But she's bittersweet, she knocks me off me feet" and i was thinkin' often ppl will let b/f-g/f relationships get in the way of our relationship with God. i kno that i let me just likeing a guy a bunch practically ran me into a tree on the road of the Christian walk. God should be our whole, our life but we often think " Well if God gave me this life i should live it like i want to" God didnt give us life so it could be a party. he gave it to us so we could have the choice to be like him. and if we do decide to be like him we should share it w/ other ppl. God is living our life with us. thats way he gave us the Holy Spirit (many other people refer to this as our concience) God is there when we say NO to things that are wrong (drugs, alchol,ect,) and he is there when we do the wrong thing. he's there if we dont alpolgize. hes allways there. just sometimes we dont want to feel him. i was to a piont when i couldnt feel him, and i regret so much. it was like not seeing a good friend for like 10 yrs and u dont kno what to say to them. i couldnt talk to God w/ out loosing focus. im glad i was able to fix it.i think every one should let God sweep then off thier feet, and yes sometimes he seems bitter but in the end it all comes out sweet. (yes i kno that was super cheesy but thats just how i roll! 9月7日 if the shoe fits!!hey is me!!
anyway in youth group (Cape Bible Chaple) we had a sharing service tonite. and when someone went up they would light a candle on the table in the center of the room. i was the first to go up. and i told everyone that my porbem w/ God is that i cant focus on him very well. then about 5 or 6 more kids went up then i waited and went up again and told everyone that i was reading this book called "Jesus Freaks: Maryters! the ppl who died becuse of their faith", u should totally read all of the Jesus Freak Books written by dc talk, and there was this one story about this guy who was in some contry where Christianity is illegal. this guy was tortuerd at one piont they pulled out his finger nails and hung him on a celing fan by his HAIR, tryiing to get him to rebuke Jesus. and i said that many Christians are afraid of telling other people about God becuse they'll get laughed at. thats not as bad as hanging on a fan be ur hair. then like a bunch of ppl went up and lit candles as they shared. and it was near the end and i thought of this weird thing. i went up again and said " Many ppl kind oftreat God like a SHOE!! ppl willl put it on when its all new then it starts to get old and the shoelaces like fall apart and then they through the shoes out( fall away from God).But God never really gets too smalll ppl just think he is. he will always be the right size for u. i wore the shoes, the high piont in my relationship w/ God. then i turn 13 and my shoes got too small in a second, gradually i stopped doing devotions,"forgetting" to pray at night. and now im trying to put on a new pair and this time i know they will never get too small or too old." and with that i ask u to think about it. r u even wearing shoes? do u think its time to put some new ones on?
hey talk to me!!
Belle
ps. this seams really wierd, but thats just how i roll, son!! 8月4日 God, Jesus and other things about mehey everyone!! camp was really awesome!!! On the first nite i felt really touched. i dont think anyone is ever going to see this so it wont matter if i say things i normally wouldnt say infront of ppl. i kno that im not close to God any more. i have problems focusing on Him. i thought that after camp everything would be fine, i'd get close to God again, but thats not how its working out. i kno that i barely have a relatationship w/ him. and it all started w/ a guy. yes, yes, a guy. instead of talking to God i'd think a about this guy. instaed of doing ,my devotions i'd write in my new diary about that guy. i never used a diary before, untill the guy. well acctually i knew the guy for a long time, i still kno him now, but a never thought about him in that way before. i remembered last year at Girls camp that was the high piont in my relationship w/ God. when i pretty much started doing devotions. i thought if i went back to camp it'll put things back the way they were. i thought that just by going to camp i would fix my relationship w/ God. in one week. now i kno that its not going to be that easy that i have to have more then one week of constant teaching, more than one week of being w/ christian friends. i think that last year before i was a "teenager" my mind accepted God more easilly i've gotten so stuck in my ways that now i have to work twice as hard to fix them. i kno that i need to go back to God as a child, not as a teenager. on my b-day i was so happy to finally be a teenager , but now i feel so separted from God. i want to yell his name like a child afraid of the dark so he will come back to me. i want to feel Him mave inside my haert to wittness to those who r lost. i kno that i should go straight to my friends, but its so much easier to go to those who dont kno u. they havent seen u when u were in a bad mood. when i was little everyone thought i was such a good child, all my teachers thought i was an excellent example. now my teachers turn up when i say something not pleaseing to the Lord. i never cursed but i do jokingly call people names and well the teachers dont kno that. and i kno that i shouldnt call ppl names anyway.its just so much harder to be good when u arent good on the inside. sometomes i think not saved ppl are lucky becuse they can sin and i cant. i kno it should be the other way around but i cnat help it. i just want Jesus to be visible in my life again.
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